AIRA's ANTHOLOGY...

wala ko magawa.......
walang pasok....(every wednesday is a rest day!)
so, kwento ko na lng nangyare nung weekend...

nung saturday...nasa tita ko kami..dun kami naglunch... tapos nung gabi bday ng cousin ko...so inuman... pro di ako sumali kse may pupuntahan ako the next day...so inubos ko na lang spaghetti...wahaha! they were forced to cook a new batch of spag! pro, in fairness, astig nung sounds nila...imago...at iba pang indie na genre!!! nga pla...graduate na si rory(gilmore girls)... hmmm...si dean mukhang magpapakasal na tlga...

the next day...sunday... di ako nakagising ng maaga...so di ako nakapunta sa YFC summit...lagot...three times in a row na kong di nkakapunta sa mga YFC meetings!!! i hope God understands(i know He does!) ...promise di na ko uulit!!! merong sector assembly this sunday...pupunta na ko...yikes... did i say promise???!!!

same day...debut ng blockmate ko...saya!... actually...sa lahat ng debut na napuntahan ko this year... yun ang pinakamasaya... i hope my bestfriend will not read this... masaya din naman debut ng bestfriend ko..kaya lang late ako at medyo inis sya sa kin non(i know it's my fault)...tska yung mga kabarkada namin sinama nila boyfriend nila.. e dba it's supposed to be our bonding time tpos whenever i am talking to them they were distracted by their boyfriends!!!... don't get me wrong..i'm not jealous but as i said...it's supposed to be our bonding time!.. anyway, back to my blockmate's debut... sarap ng food(creampuffs!!!)... tapos aastig nung sounds...at andun yung crush nung isa kong barkada(UP Fighting Maroon sya!!!)...pro di ko sya type..ahehe!...isa pang nakakatuwa yung mga blockmates ko...ang kuliiiiiiit!!!!

nung umuwi kami(kasama yung 2 blockmates ko na nagmamakaawang mg-overnyt sa house nmen)...mas sobra pa ang kakulitan..to the nth power na!... sabi ko na madaldal din ang guys e!!! di nila ko pinatulog...kwento ng kwento...2 hrs lng ang tulog ko kase umaasa kami na walang pasok the next day( bec. of that transport strike thingy!)..pro..damn...may pasok...at nagpupumilit yung 2 mokong na pumasok...so todo madali ito...pro di pa rin kami nahatid ni dadi so walang car...hmmm..nagtaxi kami!..sila pinagbayad ko...actually pinilit nila kong sila ang magbayad..at medyo malaki yung babayaran...from our house hanggang taft ba naman e! wahaha!..if i know.. nagpapaka-gentleman lang ang 2 mokong na yun!ahehe! pro thanks na rin sa kanila!

in school...isang prof. lang ang pumasok..nastranded cguro yung iba! wahaha! paarang nasayang lang araw ko..sana tinulog ko na lang...actually hanggang ngayon e medyo inaantok pa ko...
so zzzzz...tulog muna ko....zzzzzzz

by the way...thanks sa background music ni sugar_rush!

hmmmm...
2 weeks to go...bakasyon na!!!
well, technically...
kse we have to go back on March 30 for our final exams pa...
and after that i have to get my classcards from my "wonderful" profs!
but before i think of vacation...i have 2 research papers to pass...
one for kom(about extended families) and the other for psychology(about amnesia)...
which reminds me... wala pa kong nagagawa!!!
can somebody help me??? well, marami na kong notecards... nkagawa na rin ako ng outline... the only thing left is the paper itself!!! which is the most important part!!!wahaha!
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nga pla..i think i just broke my promise the other day...
kse may household meeting ang YFC kagabi..and unfortunately.. di ako nakapunta kasi umalis kami ng family ko...
pero i'll make up for it today...may sector assembly kasi... and this time I WILL ATTEND!wahaha!
have to change clothes pa..wag na kaya...hmmm...nah!!!
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nga pla thanks ulit kay sugar_rush para sa background music ko!lol!

oo...tama...andito nga sila...
don't get me wrong... mahal ko sila...astig sa mga kwento at tawanan and all... pero..andito ko ngayon sa kwarto nakaharap sa monitor at pilit na pinalalabas ng aking magulang upang magmano at makipagchikahan sa kanila...haaaaayyyyy....
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isa pa...ayoko lumabas kse malalanghap ko nanaman ang bagong pinturang dingding na pinagpilitang papinturahan na aking ina... pakiramdam ko parang sumisinghot ako ng rugby e...
waaaaaahhhh...nakakalango!!!

talaga nga nman...
u don't know what u got till it's gone!
kase...last week lng may taong nangungulit sakin.. at lahat na yata ng excuses binigay ko... "uhmmm..kakain na ko e.." , "sori, nakatulog ako!"... ang lame dba???!!!
pero may mas lame dyan...
di ako sure pero parang...
namimiss ko yata ang pangungulit nya(?)
haaaaayyyy....
baket ganon???
eto nanaman ako... hirap sakin...
tinataboy ko ang mga taong di ko alam mahalaga pala sakin o magiging mahalaga sakin!

ayoko ng ganito!!!
* salamat ulit kay sugar_rush sa music...

amnesia...memory loss...confusion...
inability to recognise familiar faces or places
caused by head injury...severe illness...high fever...seizures
...emotional shock or hysteria...at marami pang iba...
f*ck... due na yung paper ko next thursday
at so far...yan pa lang ang alam ko sa topic na yan!!!
panic mode...
major cram na 'to!
at sa kabila ng lahat ng ito...
nakukuha ko pang magbasa(ng walang karela-relasyon sa topic na amnesia!)... e ano magagawa ko... astig ng buk e... i recommend it tsa sinomang mapapadaan at makakabasa ng entry kong 'to...
tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom

enjoy! ...ay may paper pa nga pla ko..hmmm...nxt time na yun!

tama... ang hirap mabuhay sa mundong ito
with all the pressure...sa skul...sa bahay... at kung ano pang ek-ek!
isa pa..ang hirap ng walang pera!
sadya yatang hindi mabubuhay o magtatagal man lang ang isang indibidwal kung wala kang pera!
bakit ba kailangang pagdaanan lahat ng ito ng isang katulad kong nasa murang edad pa???(next month pa ko mag-e-18.. kaya nasa murang edad pa ko!)
at bakit ba kailangang problemahin ang laht ng ito...WAG NA NGA! change topic na nga...
nung biyernes...nakita ko ang crush ko... nakasalubong... naka-eye-to-eye...hmmm... isanlibong ideya ang sumagi sa utak ko... patirin ko kaya.. tapos magkuwari akong di makalakad... tapos bubuhatin nya ko!!! o di kaya bigla kong yakapin...naku wag!!! baka mahabla ako ng harassment..at isa pa e 3rd yr na yon!( ibig sabihin marami na yong resbak!) hehe!
kasi naman naaalala ko kasi si......
sabi nga ng blockmates ko get over him...
leche...tumugtog pa yung "what if?"
lalo ko tuloy naalala..haaaayyyy... cge makikikanta na rin ako...
here goes...

what if?
babyface

I ran into a friend of yours the other day,
And I asked her how you'd bin.
She said 'My girl is fine just bought a house, got a job, real good man.'
I told her I was glad for you, thats wonderful,
But does she ever ask 'bout me?
'She says she's happy with her life right now, let her go, let her be.'
And I told myself I would but something in my heart just would not let you go.
I just wanna know...

CHORUS
What if we were wrong about each other?
What if you were really made for me?
What if we were supposed to be together?
Would that not mean anything?
What if that was supposed to be my house that you go home to everyday?
How can you be sure that things are better?
If you can't be sure your heart ain't still here with me,
Still wanting me.

Your friend asked me if there was someone special in my life that I was seein',
I told her there was no one in particular,
There's just I, myself and me.
I told her that I dream of you quite often,
She just cut her eyes at me,
She said you got a home, you're very happy,
So just stop your medling!
I told her that I wont,
I said things are cool, but I guess I was wrong.
I still can't move on.

CHORUS

Now that could be my car,
That could be my house,
That could be my baby boy that you're nursing.
That could be the trash which I always take out,
That could be the chair I love to chill in.
That could be my food on the table at the end of the day.
Hugs and the kisses, all the love we make.
What the hell do you expect me to say?
What if it's really supposed to be this way?
What if you're really supposed to be with me?
(Ooohhh!)

shucks!!!
oo biglaan...nakakabigla!!!
biglaan ang mga research papers...exams (read: psych101, math14, anthro1, bio)
walang pahinga!!! napakatoxic!!!
parang yung exam ko ngayon ng isang sem ay pinag-aralan ko ng buong taon sa hayskul!!!
at nagrerebelde pa ang computer namen sa bahay...
ayaw bumukas!!! sabi ni momi nadedemonyo daw!!!
pro ayos lang..last day na ngayon ng regular classes..(may final exams pa kse hanggang march 30)..
tapos may THINGS TO DO or should i say GOAL ang mga blockmates ko
yon ay maharang ang kanilang crush ... lame ba??? hindi rin..MASAYA!
at kanina pagbaba ko ng stairs nakita ko nakaupo sya... at sumagi sa aking murang isipan ang GOAL nila...ako rin kaya gawin ko yon...hmmmm.... ayoko nga baka makita ko sya kung saang lugar at hindi pa nya mapigilan ang kanyang sarili..wahahahaha!!!
okay lang mangarap...libre naman yon e!!!

oo...
mamimiss ko ng sobra ang lahat ng tao, bagay, at alaala ng block7
i guess, ngayon lang sakin nagsink in na magkakahiwalay na nga ang pinakaiingatang pagsasamahan ng napakakwela, napakakulit at napakasweet na block sa unang taon ng college lyf ko!
oo nga.. may exams pa kme... magkikita pa kame.. kaya lang syempre iba na.. may iba kse gusto magshift ng course.. may pupunta sa ibang bansa.. at kung ano pang ek-ek!
pero no matter what... this is the ultimate block for me...sabi nga nila "para 'tong pustiso..can't smile without u(para sa may mga falseteeth!hehe!)"..."para 'tong kuto... can't get u out of my head(courtesy of emessez!)"..
pro bsta... this block together with all the people comprising it and all the memories WILL SURELY BE REMEBERED!

yup...
thinking 'bout the song of matchbox20...push..
nainspire lng.. napasulat tuloy...
kse naman ANO BANG NAGAWA KONG MASAMA PARA PAGTAGUAN O IWASAN NYA KO???
maybe i am wrong in some things...pro is that all that matters in this f*ckin world???!!!
I DON'T KNOW WAT TO THINK ANYMORE!!!

wel..makikisabay na lng ako sa matchbox20...
here goes(yung fave line ko na lng sa song!)

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me,
Like I'm a little untrusting,
When I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya,
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me.
You couldn't stand to be near me,
When my face don't seem to want to shine,
'Cause it's a little bit dirty.
Well, don't just stand there, say nice things to me,
'Cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged,
And you, you don't know me,
Yeah, well, I can't change.
I won't do anything at all.

I wanna push you around,
Well, I will,
Well, I will,
I wanna push you down,
Well, I will,
Well, I will,
I wanna take you for granted,
I wanna take you for granted,
Yeah, yeah, well, I will.

*nga pla tnx kay sugar_rush ulit sa music!!!

my blockmates approached him...
they said someone wants to talk him...
they pointed towards my direction...
then...
we talked!!!
he's so nice!!!
i felt like we're so close..considering the length of time and the things(quite interesting i should say) that came up!!!
he even held my hand...but then the conservative side of me came up...so i said "oist...ano ka ba?!"
then after a while... his sister came... and he introduced me to her!(awwwww..such a nice guy!)
but at that time he needs to go..
then his sister talked to me...said nice things about him..and so on...

at that time..i'm smiling!!!(abot tenga!)

then..i heard a knock on my door
"AIRA...GISING NA! MALELATE KA!"
SHIT...panaginip lang pala!!!
kala ko totoo! sana totoo na lang... mukhang totoo e!
hmmmm....gawin ko kayang totoo???!!!

paggising ko ngayonG araw na 'to...
paalis na lahat ng tao sa bahay...
ako lang ang natira!
WALANG INIWANG PAGKAIN!
ay..meron pala... cheezwhiz (read: wala namang tinapay!)
papakin ko daw ba ang cheezwhiz?!?!?!
ayoko nga!!!
buti na lang andiyan ang ever reliable...PANCIT CANTON!
*take note* with calamansi!
haaaayyyy..panawid gutom din yon! masarap pa!
kaya ngayon..noodles ang takbo ng utak ko!

hindi buhay na uling ang ibig kong sabihin ha!
actually... hindi ko alam ang totoong salin nito sa Filipino...
help???!!!
ganito raw kase ang final exam namen sa KOM... magsasalin ng mga idyoma(ah..yan ba ang tagalog ng idioms???..err... idioms na lang parang mas ok!)
at oo...
may pasok pa ko..(read: final exams pa sa KOM at MATH14! )
KAINIS TALAGA
sa ganitong pagkakataon pa naman napakahirap mag-aral!
yung tipong lahat na ng kaibigan mo e..nagpapakasarap na at kukuhain na yung mg classcard nila...tapos ikaw... nagsusunog pa ng kilay sa pag-aaral! )
ayoko ng ganito...sana makapagconcentrate pa ko..err..do i have a choice???!!!

anyway...beerday ng ka-YFC ko... debut nga e... so ibig sabihin..bukas na lang ako mag-aaral!ang sama ko ba?!

nga pala kung sino may alam kung ano ang live charcoal...pls. lang sabihin nyo sakin!

AYOKONG BUMAGSAK SA MATH14!
kahapon final exam namen... at syempre umaasa ang lahat na dadalian na yon at kung ano-ano pa... pero much to my dismay...fill in the blanks ang exam! leche! pakshet! arrrgh! di ko ma-gets kung pano nila naisip na gawing fill in the blanks yon..di naman yon tula o story na pwede mong kabisaduhin ang sagot!
sino ba namang di mababagabag at mangangamba sa kalalabasan non?!?!?! at nakakahiya pa kase pag-uwi ko.. lumabas ang pagiging OC ko... pagsakay ko ng fx hanggang sa pagbaba ko e hawak ko ang calculator ko at scratch paper at nagkokompyut! (sori kay louie..sya kasabay ko umuwi e!)
pag bumagsak ako sa math14... maa-underload ako at kailangan ko magsummer at isang malaking pagkakamali iyon! ...at hindi pa ko makakapagshift sa gusto kong course! ANSAKLAP! kahit nga c tom welling(smallville) walang nagawa..bumabalik pa rin sa aking alaala ang math14!...lalo na pag naiisip kong ang prof namen ay hindi nagbibigay ng considerations! yung dati ko ngang exam may butal pa yung score e! pakshet talaga!
ARRRGGGHHH!